it is cold here - minus 20 for a couple days

with no snow last year

this covering of a few inches

feels more than enuf

do want the days to stretch longer 

a little more quickly than they have so far

not that I can do a thing about this

except 

wait and wait

but

have i forgotten my intention to make use of these

dark short days

my desk my garage my old basement have

been entered in my journal

to remind me

winter

is for making up the inner loss during summer

that is of course we cook and eat

inside

and the green green grass covered by playing 

kittens and kids

and me

go outside to the outer world

outer summer

inner winter

so

now i will this day throw papers in the trash

and i will file all papers to do with the death

of my brother ralph and even look for some

pictures of him

i will do this before the bright sunshine goes to California

where it is always an outer world

wish me luck - bye